What is a Liebster?

It’s an award given to new/up and coming bloggers..my friend, Unconceivably Blessed,(at blogspot) was nominated today!  YAY!!  She’s awesome. She is blatantly honest, full of love and hope and if you’re on this IF journey, you’ve met a kindred spirit! 

It seems being nominated, comes with rules:

1) Each blogger nominated must post 11 things about
2) Then answer the 11 questions the tagger has
3) Blogger must then create 11 questions of their own
to ask the bloggers they decide to nominate.
4) They must choose 11 bloggers with less than 200
followers to nominate and link them on their blog post

5) Bloggers must be notified of their award!
6) No tag backs
and…she linked me!!!  Awww….  I only do this to vent (my husband can only take so much 🙂 )  But I’m game, so here goes. 

11 things about me:

 1.  I’m a probation officer…and I hate my job!

  2. I’ve known my husband over 20 years- we’ve been together for 3, married for a little over 1 year

  3.  I love animals- probably more than most people

  4.  I’m discovering that eating healthy doesn’t taste as bad as I thought

5. I’m a huge snoop

6. I’m adopted- my mother was told after her first child, she wouldn’t have any more so they “got me” ..6 mos later she was pregnant with my younger brother

7. I have never truly felt like I fit in

8. I am not a fan of sports- but I do like to watch ice skating and gymnastics

9. I LOVE theater

10. I love books!! Trying to adjust to my Nook..

11. I think music is a life requirement

Unconceivably Blessed’s questions:
What is your favorite color? I love
to wear red…I LOVE all things pink..and I find blue calming
What first attracted you to your significant other? He accepted me for me-flaws and all
Mountains or beach? Beach- of the laid back, non touristy kind
What is your comfort food? Chocolate
Who do you depend on the most? my husband
What is your favorite season of the year? Fall
What is your favorite vacation spot? Relaxed beachy spot
Do you have any hobbies? Reading, pinterest, napping
Who is your favorite celebrity? There are many I admire..I love Gwyneth Paltrow
Droid,iPhone or neither? Droid
What is your favorite restaurant? The Melting Pot

Questions for my nominees:
What is your favorite movie?
Who is your favorite band/artist?
Iced or hot tea?
City or country?
Where do you want to visit?(somewhere you’ve never been)
Sleep in or go to bed early?
DVD or Blu-ray?
Cake or Pie?
What is your happiest memory?
Did you have braces?
What is your favorite book?

And my nominees are…drumroll please…

The Stork Diaries, Waiting to Expand, Submerged, Ill Not Crazy, Just Another Infertility Blog and Just Stop Trying and It Will Happen

Yes, I know thats only 6…there are others I love (I Want A Dumpster Baby) but she has like a zillion followers, therefore not an option!

Okay- it’s your turn!

scared to hope

Today has been…I can’t say it…it’s scary to say the g word because that leads to hope which has inevitably lead to heartache. But still…that spark was ignited this morning in a fuzzy black and white image on a computer screen and a genuine smile on my Dr’s face. “Well look at that…” He counted…and the count was higher than any other time- than I ever dreamed would happen- and he was smiling..which made me cry..happy tears while this smile creeped across my face. I can’t remember the last true smile I had.

My heart wants to sing from rooftops..its a small triumph..not the big prize..but a triumph none the less and I want someone to be happy with me. I will tell my husband after the IUI..he will be happy but if I tell him now I’m afraid he will feel more pressure than usual, knowing the odds are better this time. And pressure is not helpful for his task at hand. (unintended pun)

My head is telling me not to hope, not to share because hope, for me, nosedives on CD28. And after seeing my Dr smile that big and feeling it spread across my face, knowing there are that many chances, for not one to come to fruition will slay me.

I am scared to hope….